Sometimes I feel like when I am in charge of my own entire productivity I fail. But most of the time it was just me, by myself, succeeding.
Aren't you tired?
This whole gender thing issue going on across the world is getting enormous.
Aren’t you tired of debating to be right?
Can we just be more compassionate, understanding and accepting?
Bisexual?
I have dated girls and dudes in the past and from time to time I still get more attracted to girls or still wanted to do something with girls. I consider myself as gay man but there are times that I think I am just a confuse human being attracted to either extreme masculinity or extreme femininity and no I didn’t want to do with anything in between.
Just a thought on a Saturday morning. Have a good one guys!
DEEPER
Had a conversation with my student counselor a week ago and he was being tough on me. I honestly don’t think I’m doing well with tough love. I just go deeper and deeper.
TIME
Do not take life for granted, life is not guaranteed. One day you are here and next day you are not. Spend time with people you love. You will never know when will be the last time you will talk to them.
Do Good
Let's not become weary in doing good. My Mom once said if you can do something nice and good for someone, do it. The Lord will reward you in due time.
(Galatians 6:9-10) Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers.
UNSENT LETTER
4/29/2023
1430
My heart feels immensely heavy as of the moment. Sadly, one of my close friends attacked me in social media and gave unnecessary comments about my posts, degraded and attacked me personally.
I do not take social media seriously and for me social media is my creative space, I do not make any money out of any social medias. I do not have a big follower to begin with. If you aren’t ok with me expressing my creative side in social medias, you are more than welcome and respectfully get out of my space. I should have responded appropriately and asked rather than ignoring and just decided to thank him later for his input. I got blocked right away and I respect that. But I do not know where he is coming from. What is it? Is it the way I cook my food? my travel stories? my gender identity? my exercising videos? lol. Did it offend you on any level? If it did, I honestly want to know what it is and why?
For all who do not know and have met me later in life. I have been blogging, vlogging and creating contents online since 2009. That is even the birth of TikTok, Reel, and other social media platforms. I even got nominations in prestigious blog awards back home. I do it for fun and to express my creative side and I do not make money out of it, oh maybe I lied - I appeared in a Movie and few TV shows back home - and made some money of it - if that is what you are crying about?
Maybe this post will somehow reach you in the future. Consider this as an unsent letter.
Dear you, I just want you to know that whatever is going on with the world I mostly have no intentional opinion to hurt anybody having different thoughts and opinions about a certain issue. I mostly do not care. I am an immigrant and later on got my naturalization, and my education did not come from the US. I do not hold any strong opinion about politics, religion, sex or really anything in the world, I honestly do not care about most of the things. Bro if you tell me, you are Republican, I love Republicans, if you are Democrat, I love democrats. If you are pro guns or against guns, pro-abortion or against it - I am that. I’m you, whatever you like. I sometimes just make jokes and laugh about stuffs and make opinions I one hundred percent do not mean. Can we just get along? Sometimes arguing with each other is just exhausting. I just love you enough that I’m hurt to get an unnecessary degradation from you.
I am also single, never been married or in any serious relationship. I do not hold a strong opinion about marriages - I’ve never been married; I do not know what it feels like, how do I know? I am also allowed to flirt, hookup, dress whether to dress as a boy or a girl or do anything as what a single person would do. I know you know that I have come out as gay years ago and if that is still an issue for you, I am sorry, I cannot do anything about it. I am not changing who I am because of what other people perceive to be right. Life is way too short to live in the shadows. I do not want to regret anything in life! Life is too short to be anything but happy. I’m a type of person that he knows what he wants and goes and get it. If I get it, lucky me! if I don’t then it’s not for me, it’s that easy for me. I do not want to delay gratification only to regret it later in life, I’d rather be rejected rather than regret of not asking or doing it.
Lastly, I do not have a long time left in this world. I’m past my teenage years and now in my early 30’s soon enough Ill be in my forties and also suffering a condition that I’d like to keep to myself (NOT A COMMUNICABLE OR TRANSMITTABLE DISEASE ON ANY FORMS). I will not transmit this to you by any way. I have been getting treatment and I’m getting better and taking care of myself. I have been silently battling this myself so please respect by not asking what it is.
Anyway, if this letter reaches you someday. I hope we can still be friends. Have a good day. :)
Love,
Arkee Blu
STRUCTURAL HEART / ADULT AND PEDIATRIC CATHLAB
This new travel assignment scares me a little bit, the pediatric side. I mean every new travel assignment I get anxious & scared. New work environment, new people to work with, new living situations, new lifestyle, new everything! I’m always excited to meet the crazies though because I am one of them (modified crazy).
I feel like I have honed my craft and skills as a nurse, and I want to be uncomfortable again. I’m crazy and I like a little chaos in my life -I believe that being in an unfamiliar environment produces motivation and determination and also that is where creativity comes from.
My friend thinks I have undiagnosed ADHD - I move a lot, can’t sit still in one place, should always be doing something or chewing on something - I always do break away in routine situations including with my love life hence my longest work experience in one place and longest relationships were all less than 2 years lol. That is why travel nursing is working for me! I always challenge myself to learn something new each assignment - or learn something new every day and meet new people!
Okay ttyl I have to pee! Please wish me luck!!!! (Insert laughing and crying emoji here - that is what I feel like) I also believe we need a little bit of luck at times and not just purely hard work.
DUMB
I dated a divorced tall, in shape, blessed, masculine white dude with a kid not too long time ago and I learned so much from him. One thing he taught me, and I will never forget for the rest of my life is to act as dumb as I can be if I want to get railed. He said he f*cked a lot of girls and trans in the pasts and he tends not to fuck smart people. Smart people have so much to say, and you want to listen to their smart thoughts and opinions and learn from them.
So I learned that If I act dumb in a group and say stupid things unrelated to the conversations like talking about my favorite color or talk about my toes when they are talking about sports, cars, finances etc. more likely someone will likely stick a dick in my mouth or choke me while being railed so they will not hear me talk.
I mean dumb people only have 5 to 6 brain cells and if they choke and cut the blood supply to that remaining brain cells - and brain cells is down to 2 or 3- they are not damaging or doing the world any harm.
Okay thanks bye.
GRAD SCHOOL
Oh Yeah started Grad school - purely online and I study at my own pace. Doesn’t help though. Every time I open the student portal and read the lists I got to work on, my mind wanders and think that I have more better things to do in life rather than sitting in front of this laptop. Maybe if I have a MacBook my productivity will increase. LMAO.
Eh~
Sometimes I feel lonely romantically. I miss having someone right next to me 24/7 but I chose a lifestyle wherein I’m pretty much undatable- I chose it! I travel for work and I’m on the road so much. Sometimes I feel lonely romantically but most of the time I feel blessed that I’m not tied with anybody.
#lifeistooshortforonedick #lmao
Friends
There’s a saying that says “Friends are your chosen family.”
I do not necessarily agree on that. I don’t choose my friends in life, I think friends comes under circumstances. If you choose your friends I think it’s just a very cynical move isn’t? I mean if I get to choose my friends I will only be friends with the hot and the rich ones lol.
I do think that friends come and go - and the ones that stays are the real ones and becomes family.
LOVE CAN BE
Love can still be very beautiful and real even though that love did not last forever.
I hope it’s not a good bye for us, but a see you later. :)
ZERO TOLERANCE
I have zero tolerance for bullies.
Bullying defines as an abuse and mistreatment of someone vulnerable by someone stronger, more powerful, etc.
BULLYING SHOULD NOT HAPPEN IN A WORKPLACE OR SHOULD NOT HAPPEN ANYWHERE.
Not because you do not speak the same language means that person is less than you and should be mistreated and degraded. Intelligence is not defined as being able to speak and understand a specific language. Tho English is the universal language - to be honest - if you speak fluent in English- what other languages do you speak?
Please do not compare yourself with others - you will just become bitter - and hateful and the worst you become a bully. There will always be a greater and lesser person than yourself. Instead of hating and bullying others why not understand, forgive and be kind? I’m sure it will do good to your well-being and also to that person you bullies.
Why date Asian?
I was selling myself to the white dude I’m seeing right now, and I came up with 4 great reasons why he should date an Asian man/woman - whatever he or she identifies with.
We have no food allergies. If we do, we fight through it. Our Asian parents exposed us to dirt and shit and basically got immune to everything. We Asian seldomly seen buying gluten free products and shits alike.
Asians are frugal and are great with handling Finances hence crazy rich Asians. Finding an Asian with bad credit is like finding a white woman uber driver. It rarely exists.
We are not VEGAN and the like. How sad of a life dating a vegan/ vegetarian. You basically can’t go anywhere or eat anything you want if you date a vegan. I was once gone to vegan restaurant and eating in there felt like I was in the library eating. Joyless.
Indians are mostly vegetarian, but I don’t know if Indians should be considered Asians. I think they should have their own category and traditional Indians should also have their own plane - but that’s another story.
We work harder in life. The white people have never experienced the joys of fear of deportation. I once hired a white woman and an Asian lady clean my house and you can see the big difference of the work. White Woman just swept the floor and go while the Asian lady scrubbed and polished my floor. We do strive and excel in life because of the fear of deportation. That’s why Asian starts with A.
So, whenever you think of hiring someone to work for you - hire someone that is not from this country - and tell him / her - whatever he identifies with to do better otherwise you will call the immigration. White people wouldn’t care and possibly sue you for calling him/her out - whatever he identifies with lol.
That’s my 2 cents. Thanks and bye.
Just a thought
I don’t think you could call yourself an author if you only published one book and just chronicled your life, you are basically just transcribing your diaries and compiled into one hard covered book. Write me a fiction and maybe you can convince me that you are an author. Kthanksbye.
Ready?
My friends would describe me as a type of guy who knows what he wants and goes and gets it. Some friends call me a player, a go getter, some calls me the sweetest, a lover. Haters or best friends call me a hoe. Geez. I’m not denying it. What can I do? I’m the type of person that can just get a dick anywhere LOL. I can just sit at a bar alone and I always get approached on. It’s alright, call me however you want, I don’t give a fuck.
At the end of the day, I’m just a hopeless romantic, an emotional dude who wears his heart on his sleeve. I have so much love to give. I’m ready to find somebody who does the same. I know this person is just there. Whether this somebody is someone I know from the past or this somebody is someone I haven’t met yet, I know this somebody is just there.
I’m ready but no rush :)
Christmas Day 2022
My Teddy Bear Christmas Themed Party.
Merry Christmas to all who believe and Happy Holidays to all who does not. I wish y’all happiness, peace and Joy. I was judged for having a teddy bear Christmas party by the believer and yet their Christmas decorations at home does not consist of a baby Jesus but by reindeers, Santa Claus and lots of Christmas balls. Anyway, I got super creative and a bit crazy and had so much fun with friends and family.
TEDDY BEAR CHRISTMAS THEME PARTY on TikTok
TRICK OR TREAT?
Who’s ready to go trick or treating?
10/31/2022
Subs
Being an Asian who grew up in Asia l have never really liked sandwiches. I’ve never craved and never wanted to spend money buying subs. I feel like all subs are the same and overly priced and why spend that money when I can actually make a good one at home. For me rice is life but I need to give credit where credit is due.
I watched the hit series F.R.I.E.N.D.S so many times and the character Joey there loves sandwiches so much but that never really clicked in me - I’ve never liked sandwich until I had this sandwich from Jersey Mike’s subs. Now I understand Joey.
I certainly eat mostly home cooked meal as I prep my meal every week but this sandwich makes me crave it every weekend! This #16 on Jersey Mike’s menu called Mike’s Chicken Philly is so fucking delicious. It’s got fresh to order Grilled tender chicken, grilled peppers, grilled onions and white American cheese. I also love their Agave Vanilla Cream Soda to match my sub. Perfect pair!
I think it’s a northeastern thing. White people loves subs. I’m currently working in New Hampshire and yeah I’ve had other pretty good subs I’ve tried in this area. I’ll mention Pressed Cafe and Tatte Bakery and Cafe, they have some good ones too! Oh oh. I gotta go back talking about rice. Ttyl.